What if God says "no"?

We're human. We don't pray as much as we should, nor do we have all the wisdom that we should. But when we pray for something, really pray, we believe that God will answer according to our plan. We know it shouldn't be that way, but it is. I was travelling with my mom and sister this weekend, and this song came on the radio. The chorus goes like this :

"What if God says no?

It doesn't mean He loves us less.

It just means He knows what's best.

What if God says no?

It's enough we have His grace.

So don't let go of your faith....

What if God says no?"

It was an incredible reminder to me that I am a fallible person. I cannot fathom God's thoughts, or His plans, I only know that He is there, working all things for my good. But what about my desires? my needs? For the past several months, I have been unable to sleep well....and I've tried about every trick in the book. But still every morning I wake up more exhausted than when I went to sleep. I know it probably doesn't seem like a big deal, but it is to me. Every night, as I fall into bed, drained, I cry out to my Lord, begging Him for rest, for one morning when I can wake up and feel like I've been to sleep. But so far, He's said no. Does that give me the right to be snappy, or impatient, or even to slacken my energy expenditures in His service? No. I'm coming to realize that this is part of His plan for me... teaching me to rely on Him more fully for each moment, keeping me sustained when I feel I can't go on. This song just really touched my heart and caused me to look at this trial in a new light- and even gave me a bit of joy, knowing that this isn't just pointless pain. It is for His honor, for His glory! With that thought in my heart, I could go on a thousand sleepless nights- for His sake. Anyway, I thought it might be a blessing to others if I shared that song, so here it is: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GdgJaw_Ml30